It has been a lot longer between blogs than I had anticipated. During this time, life in Krakow has steadily increased in pace and intensity. As I have got to know more and more people, there has been a continual increase in parties and social events. This has been coupled with an ever expanding workload for my university subjects. Each week, I have told myself that I will contribute to the website with a new blog but then sometime has come up and the blog has taken a backseat to what I had perceived to be more pressing at that given time.
However, I had decided that tonight would be the perfect time to write a new blog. I was reminded by my dad on Thursday that it had been three months since I started ‘m y big adventure’ and although I did not think that much would change during this time, I have been astonished by my own personal evolution. As a result of this personal growth, I have begun to consider whether my life in Australia will be transformed by my experiences.
The separation from my life back home has allowed me to reflect on every little aspect of the everyday and mundane. While my life in Australia has come to a grinding halt, it has continued to flow and evolve for all of those who are important to me in Brisbane. This has caused me to question where I will fit in their lives and whether I will have to adapt in order to still have a place of importance.
However, I have also considered that maybe the differences in my personality may alienate some of my friends and family or even change the nature and construction of our relationships. These are some of the many concerns and anxieties I have in relation to my re-enculturation which is shockingly only two months around the corner.
Although I am frightened about my return to Australia, I am also excited by the prospect of being reunited with my friends and family. Throughout my time here, I have missed them a great deal and there are always situations or events that occur where I wish they could be with me to experience all the crazy, exciting and scary moments.
This week has been a particularly challenging week for me. There have been certain events that have occurred that have found me feel isolated or out of place within my core friendship group in Krakow. At these moments, I have really missed the comforts of home and I almost wished that my time was up in Krakow and I could be reunited with the familiarities and safeties associated with my friends, family and life at home.
While this week has been emotionally draining as I have suffered through my second bout of homesickness and depression, I have realised that my experience of a lifetime and ‘my big adventure’ is nearing to an end. Thus, I should be embracing the journey and all of its positive implications rather than wasting what precious little time I have left reflecting on the negative or frightening aspects.